Kendyll Cobb, SJRState student on the St. Augustine campus, is this week's guest blogger. Here is a little bit about Kendyll! If you want, please feel free to leave a comment at the end of her blog. And don't forget to subscribe, so you don't miss out on the weekly book blog!

 

  • Genres I like to read: Fiction, Non-Fiction
  • Favorite books: The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
  • Least favorite books: I love all books.
  • Authors I enjoy: Kathryn Glasgow
  • Where, how, and why I like to read: I love to read physical books outside! I like reading, because it takes my mind off real-world things.

I’m excited to write for SJRState’s book blog! Today’s blog is about a recent read of mine called I'm Glad my Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy. Growing up watching Jennette on “ICarly” and then discovering the horrors she hid so well was an eye-opening experience. I was recommended this book by Brenda Hoffman due to my own complex relationship with my mom; seeing someone else go from suffering in silence to healing and enjoying life was comforting in a way.

Jennette was a middle to lower class girl living with her mom, Dad, three brothers, Grandma and Grandpa. Her mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer when Jennette was young, but her passing didn't happen until much later in Jennette's life. 

Jennette never wanted to be an actress; it was her mom’s dream to be an actress, but she never had the chance. She projected her dreams of showbiz onto Jennette. During Jennette's childhood, her mom inflicted many forms of physical and psychological abuse, from intense dieting to showering with her older brother when they were teens. Throughout the memoir, we see how Jennette deals with the abuse and the aftermath of it. She reveals an eating disorder, substance abuse, and toxic relationships, most of which lead back to the root cause: her mother.

This book evoked lots of emotions for me: it's funny as well as gut wrenching. McCurdy’s sad story made me feel new emotions along with familiar ones. I have had numerous people throughout my life say that I reminded them of Jennette's character, Sam, from “ICarly,” who's characterized by her funny, aggressive, personality. After reading this book, I find I see myself more in Jennette, while others see the front both she and I put up as Sam. McCurdy’s memoir not only changed my perspective of the glamour of Hollywood, but more importantly it shined a light on the fact that people's lives are full of invisible struggles that, thankfully, they can overcome through admitting there’s a problem, guidance from trusted friends and family, and therapy.

Good news! I'm Glad My Mom Died is available to borrow from St. Johns River State College Library and on our LIBBY App. If you haven't downloaded LIBBY yet, come into the library and the staff at the circulation desk will guide you through the process. 

I'm Glad My Mom Died I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy 

ISBN: 9781982185824
Publication Date: 2022-08-09
* #1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER * #1 INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER * MORE THAN 2 MILLION COPIES SOLD! A heartbreaking and hilarious memoir by iCarly and Sam & Cat star Jennette McCurdy about her struggles as a former child actor--including eating disorders, addiction, and a complicated relationship with her overbearing mother--and how she retook control of her life. Jennette McCurdy was six years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother's dream was for her only daughter to become a star, and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. So she went along with what Mom called "calorie restriction," eating little and weighing herself five times a day. She endured extensive at-home makeovers while Mom chided, "Your eyelashes are invisible, okay? You think Dakota Fanning doesn't tint hers?" She was even showered by Mom until age sixteen while sharing her diaries, email, and all her income. In I'm Glad My Mom Died, Jennette recounts all this in unflinching detail--just as she chronicles what happens when the dream finally comes true. Cast in a new Nickelodeon series called iCarly, she is thrust into fame. Though Mom is ecstatic, emailing fan club moderators and getting on a first-name basis with the paparazzi ("Hi Gale!"), Jennette is riddled with anxiety, shame, and self-loathing, which manifest into eating disorders, addiction, and a series of unhealthy relationships. These issues only get worse when, soon after taking the lead in the iCarly spinoff Sam & Cat alongside Ariana Grande, her mother dies of cancer. Finally, after discovering therapy and quitting acting, Jennette embarks on recovery and decides for the first time in her life what she really wants. Told with refreshing candor and dark humor, I'm Glad My Mom Died is an inspiring story of resilience, independence, and the joy of shampooing your own hair.